"GOOD BYE TO MY YESTERDAY"

I see my six string lying there
trying to collect my yesterday
coz bottle of vodka has launched into my head

I was down , i had nothing to prove .
I was drowning in my tears .
I was praying to god for one more chance .
now I know I cant buy back yesterday.

now i know my life.
there were a lot of things i have lost.
now, i have got lot to prove.
good bye to all my yesterday they are gone.


change i wanna change.
learning how to live life,
learning how to pick my pie.
good bye to all my pains.


I had enough of crying.
I am going touch the sky
spread my wings and fly
I am going to live my life everyday

I have made a deal
whatever comes in my way
i am going to peel it away
i am going live my life everyday
good bye to all my yesterday
They are gone
now i am going to live my life everyday.

These were the few lines i felt when it rained few days back and the feelings just washed away with the rain :-) :-) check it out

EE gali , ee male inda
aralide ee nanna mana
dam dam yendu, jum jum yendu hadi kunidide nanna mana
manadalli aase ,
aadre gotthu nanage reality ya bashe.
haaduthide nan olagina bhava
moodu thide ninaga gi thumba moha :-) :-)

Marali Marali

Marali, marali baruthide ninna nenapu
Neene aa hennu
Ninna aa sumadura preetya kannu
Ninna aa pretiyannu kaanadha ee papi ya kannu
Marali hudukatadalli ide ninna ade kannu.
Marali marali baruthide ninna nenapu.

Nodu nee ige ee nanna kannu
Theradide nanna muchidda kannu
Hudukuthidde aa ninna pretiya kannu
Nod nee ige ee nanna kannu
Marali marali baruthide ninna nenapu.

Matte beldingalagi baa
hoovinantha suvasane yanu taa
marali baa, marali baa

nanna hrudayada hoovu badide.
maali illadante agide nanna mannasina vanvu
baa maleyagi baa.
aralisu nanna manadu hoovu

Marali MArali baruthide ninna nenapu

POEM DEDICATED TO MY FRIEND HARISH WHO BROKE DOWN VERY RECENTLY

my first blog "LOVE !!!!! The most complicated term in this world"

Okies here i go .. as everyone starts of their first blog they start of saying ... my first blog wanted to write it from a long time blah blah blah .Me to wanted to have my own blog from a long time, so here i choose the most complicated term in every ones life "LOVE" :- My first blog ....


It was a saturday morning !!! my alaram started ringing with a song, it sounded like " DIL KHUD GARZ HAI, PHISALA HAI PHIR HAATH SE, KAL USKA RAHA ,AB HAI TERE " i woke up and started my daily routine went cycling and came back. News paper had just arrived , i opened the news paper the main heading was "LOVE" bloody love , a 23 year guy suicides after his break up and he found out she broke up coz she had was seeing some one else so he suicided ... i was like what a looser!!! . I just went into the details of the news ... i dont know why!!!! but sud suddenly flash back struck my mind was digging into my past and found out about a girl whom i was about to propose .Those few months which i spent with her to get know her , the fights , messages , walks and then realized she likes some one else.So here i describe how i found out she liked some one else.
It was weekend and a rainy day too, was messaging her an d she said aww i wanna have a hot coffee now.I was asking myself should i call her for a coffee .A messaged beeped in my phone and it was her she said are u there?? would u like to come over for a coffee.I was amazed . i said okies with full smiles and i said cuppa at 2 , but bill is on you. She said deal.This was the moment i said to myself i should and i am going ask her out today . It was totally different scene in the reality .I went there at 2 she was there and asked me what u wanna have , i said any hot coffee of your choice would do.She marched towards the counter , she had left her phone on the table and a message beeped , i dont generally look into others phone.I am very well behaved :-) , but this time i reached her phone and and selected the read button .Thats all i was shattered .
Now comming back to the scene at my place , me reading news paper and digging that saturady. It started flowing in like a movie in my mind frame after frame, i was feeling odd ,i felt like i was in a theatre and a movie was screening in my mind and i was the only person sitting in the theatre, there were tears in my eyes , i came to reality . Then i checked the surroundings luckily no one was there. just wept and went into my room . I had also heard that she was happy with that guy and he was a foreigner (as i say heard it, it might be a rumour also i am not telling its proven fact). I was like ok atleast she is happy and let her future be settled.... So thats when i thought ok i wanna know whats the meaning of love. i called up few of my friends obviosuly ppl who were committed i wanted to know what they feel and finally wanted to come to a conclusion what is love about to the opposite sex.
Is it lust ??
Is it that feeling like wanna be committed kind of feeling??
Is it a search for a soul who respects u r feelings and help in all decesion making??

Well to tell about my opinion i dont know , i have not had any such experiences of being in a relationship and experiencing it hmmmm. So there were so many questions in my mind , i wanted answers to all those.

here were the few answers i found out from few of ppl who were committed

1) guy :- love ah gothilla maga , yake i like her anta gothilla but i can do any thing for her even i can just give my life to her... She has been a part and parcel of my life.I dont know where i would have been without her he said..

2) girl:- she goes like .. hey raghu strange ya !!!! u wanna find out about love ha ha .. even i started laughing .. i said jokes apart i wanna serious answer, she goes on like..
I feel secured when i am with my guy
I feel like achieving things , i feel i am more resposible being committed.
he takes care of me as if am a small kid, makes me feel comfortable
of cousre the talks, the walks, the hugs these little things gives a new dimension to my life
Its different being committed .. its something cannot be explained it can oly be experienced dude ..
then she was like why the F*** u drink ???? hmmm may be i feel good or i feel lost when i drink(i am not a regular drinker :-), just to inform you ppl :-)) she was like yes that is what love is and it can oly be experienced not told.

3) guy:- This one is a flirt... he goes like
lust lust is the only thing i love for ..
he salso went of to flash back maga ... u know my first girl right , it was during school days they both loved like anything they had almost an 7 year relationship . It seemed like they were made for each other .. in the mean time both of them graduated girl got of a job and he did not get a job .. still their relationship was going strong, one day she said i feel very insecure of my future and she dumped him then he got to know she was seeing her team leader.... since then i dont respect relationships , i make i have fun , they also have fun and say tata bye.. at lst he said he can never forget his 1st love .. Coz of her i have lost values, ethics, belief in a relation and due to that i am a FLIRT now..

These were few of the common answers which i got .. but there was no specific answer which said ya i love her/him coz..... i did not get an satisfying answer why ppl fall in love what makes them going
Finally i went to the most mature person my friend, philosopher, an art teacher by profession ... He is married and has 2 kids . Here are the few things he said ..
1) a lover is a liar to himself he lies the truthful are loveless like oyster their eyes. some great fellow told this ante i dont remember his name
2) unconditional sacrifice.
3) forgiving the flaws and accepting the differences
4)Transformation of u r life to the other person
5) your life is for some else that some else is love .. u are here to live u r life for some one else.
FINALLY HE TOOK OUT SOME BOOK AND SAID FEW SENTENCES ...i remeber only a line in that it said
"THERE IS NO TRUE MEANING IN LOVE, LOVE WITH MEANING IS NOT LOVE"....HA HA what a saying this was my 1st blog would love to have all u r comments and what u think about love...